Mass Com & Shuffle

Mass Communication

Well, what happened to my dream of taking mass com in uni?

It died. *Queue laughter*

Not exactly. Yes, originally I wanted to take mass com because I like working with people. Instead I was given English Language. Now I'm doing that. I could have applied to change course if I wanted but I decided not to as this course that I'm taking now also offers opportunities in mass com. Not only that, it has a much wider scope when searching for jobs so its all good.

What I'm planning to do in the future? Well, I'm hoping to work in the human resource department of hopefully a recording company. =)




Shuffle / Techno Rojak

Rather unique topic for a girl to ask me to blog about. But anyhow, techno and shuffle to me is just a genre of music. I like music so I listen to almost any kind of music from oldies to pop to jazz to rock to metal and even goth.

So, nothing much to say about techno or shuffle though. It's mostly for dance. I listen to it just to get some beat in life. That's pretty much it. Currently hooked onto metal or rock now. Heh...





p.s. Sorry it's only a short post. 2 reasons. 1 is that there is nothing much to elaborate on the topics and 2 is I still have unfinished assignments that need to be done. Cheerios!

Leader

Boss

"With great power comes great responsibility", a famous phrase by Stan Lee, creator of the Spiderman comics.

Yet does great responsibility come with great power? Becoming a father is a great responsibility. But, does it come with great power? Does it allow you to walk on walls? Fly? Rule the country?

When one thing comes with another, it doesn't mean that both will always come in a package.

So, what does it take to be a leader? In this world, people are striving so hard just to reach the top. To lead. And yet when they do, they end up not being able to lead. Why is that? Because they are not leaders? Well, what makes a leader? Are you born one? Or made?

To be a leader is not easy. Like it or not, all of us are leaders. Just in different manners, styles and perspectives. The many statements for being a leader;

- Strict
- Authority
- Calm
- Able to adapt
- Good organization skills
- Good people skills
- Good thinking skills

And so many more.

Good leaders have the qualities required to be one. But to me, the best is the word adapt. To be a leader, it doesn't mean that you always have to be strict. It doesn't mean that you always have to have authority. To be a leader, you just need to be a leader.

Yes it may sound weird.

- Strict yet understanding
- Strong yet compassionate
- Forceful yet gentle
- Organized yet imperfect
- Stressed yet joyful
- Pushy yet encouraging

I hope that would give you a picture of what I mean. Being a leader doesn't mean you only have a certain quality that you have to follow tightly. It also means being a friend.

People don't work for you, they work with you. Make them feel that way. They will feel wanted, happy and more encouraged. Therefore, they will willingly take the initiative to work harder. Being a friend is the most important role of being a leader.

When you have power, doesn't mean you have authority.
When you have authority, doesn't mean you have power.



p.s. I have no idea what I'm typing about. Hope you understand what I'm getting at.

Ex-Girlfriend(s)

Ex-Girlfriend(s)


Well, it seems that I have been asked to blog about a rather difficult subject. Ex-girlfriend(s). Some of you already know my story and I have never blogged about it. But, here, I shall now blog about it.







Well, it started in form 6. I had never had a real girlfriend before. I met this girl when I became a prefect. She too was a prefect and we spent a lot of time together planning activities and doing our duties together. I started having feelings for her then and made the first move. At first she told me that she wanted to think about it. So, I gave her time. 3 months if memory serves me right.

She finally accepted and I was overjoyed. However, it didn't last as long as I hoped it. 3 months roughly.

What she did was simple yet huge in a way. She lied. Some of you would say that lying happens all the time and it's too small a matter. Well, not in this case. I told her that I don't like to be lied to. If it's a small lie then I wouldn't mind. However, if it is a lie that crosses the line, then it's not something that cures that easily.

What did she lie about? Her love to me. It was during the STPM examinations. She used the words "I love you" on me. Gave me encouragements and everything. After STPM was over, she was the one who initiated the break up saying that she had wanted to break up even before the exams but she didn't dare to because she was afraid that I wouldn't be able to concentrate on the exam.

Isn't that a noble act? You may ask that. Yes, in some perspectives, it's a good thing that she did that. But she also knew that I prefer straight-forwardness and I would have been able to take it. Plus, she was already giving me signs. It was worse worrying what might happen that to have broken up straight.

So, there, she was my first girlfriend ever and it ended at that. I have not contacted her since. Some ask me to forgive and forget. I may forgive but I can never forget. Bitterness? Revengefull? Haven't forgiven her completely? Say what you want. I know my own principles and I have my way of thinking. Hate me for it. Admire me for it. That's up to you. Either way you have to live with it.




I shall continue a bit more that is off the topic.



I am constantly asked questions like "Found a girl yet?" "When are you gonna get a girlfriend?" etc.

The answer is God knows. Currently I am taking things slow with being in relationships. It's not because of the girls around me but it's because of me, myself. I feel that I'm currently not ready for a relationship. I just want to get my head straight, concentrate on studies and everything else.

Another thing is that many misunderstand my intentions. Sometimes, when I am close to a girl and treats her nice, they get the impression that I'm interested. The fact is that I only treat them as sisters. Some of you may not believe. In fact many of you may not and say that it's only a way for me to cover up. Well, again, it's up to you what you want to believe. As long as I know what I feel then I don't give a flying crap.

Hence the reason why I'm still single. Interested yes, but not in a hurry. I want to find the right one and be sure before I make a move. Life has not been easy, and it will never be.

It's true, sometimes I feel lonely. Even though I have a ton of friends around me and enjoy hanging out with them, I still feel as if something is missing in my life. It's just not complete. Emo as it may sound, you can ask single people. They may not admit it due to ego but without a doubt they feel like I do certain times.

Anyway, life is meant to be lived and that's what I'm doing now. Love is meant to be found and I'm finding. No matter what, life goes on. With the ups and downs accompanying.




p.s. Sorry if the feel was a bit angry in this post. As I said, it's a pretty hard topic. ^.^